Merry go round

My life my merry go round, it started right down & it goes up & down, or maybe a roller coaster ride now, I'm stuck at the top, not going anywhere, not leading anywhere. It's always at night when I think of you too much, I'm sorry, I can't hold that in.
I don't know how to talk to you, I don't know where to start. I seem so foolish, my pick up lines are the worst when I come around to smth I don't know how to face it.
I'll stop when one day just one day that I don't know when I'll wake up from this nightmare. I promised you to be happy, I'm trying really hard.
I smile, I laugh hard, I spend quality time with my friends, I put what can make me happy in first priority & friends.

I'm gonna try to be real happy okay!